Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Homecoming
Just got off the phone with Megan a few minutes ago. Cheered me up a bit; I haven't talked to her since Luke's party. But she called me, as she promised she would -it was nice to catch up. We're gonna meet for lunch (or find something to do, anyway) next Wednesday before I go to class.I talked to her about going to STC's Homecoming game this Friday, and I told her how I want a bunch of people to get together after the game and do something. What do you guys think? She suggested bowling, or maybe Kokomos (how late is Kokomos open?). Who'd be willing to go if we did plan something? I don't want to just go home after the game, geez. Where's the fun in that? ;)
Anyway, lemme know what you think about it.
Posted by Rachel at 11:05 AM |
*pouts* I didn't get a part.
Eh, well. Katie and Tif are both in it so I'll have to go see them. It should be a good show.
Posted by Rachel at 10:29 AM |
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
I auditioned today for Dark of the Moon, and I dunno if I got a part or not (I'll have to go check the list after my English class tomorrow) but I must say, it was a lot of fun. Thirty-some girls tried out for the 9 female roles, so I guess we'll see. *crosses fingers*Posted by Rachel at 5:20 PM |
Monday, September 27, 2004
Tell me, WHY do they sell hot dogs in packs of 10 but hot dog buns in packs of 8? WHERE is the logic in this?Posted by Rachel at 7:27 PM |
new template
Yes, ladies and gentlemen, another template. I don't know if I'm satisfied (not usually a huge fan of having so much black) but it'll do for now.Posted by Rachel at 11:44 AM |
Sunday, September 26, 2004
all I wanna say is that they don't really care about usA pet peeve of mine is when people think they know me better than they actually do. Why does this bother me? I don't know. I'm multi-faceted and ever-changing. The way I am today might not be the way I am tomorrow. What you think is there might not really be. Just when you think you've figured me out, you'll be wrong.
Posted by Rachel at 10:50 PM |
sharing time
sharing time, kids!Today's topic? "What I Did This Weekend"
I suppose my weekend technically started Thursday night since I have no classes Friday. Either way, I worked that night, so I don't have anything too exciting to tell. Before work I went to the mall on a mission...going to the mall by yourself is strangely liberating.
Friday I spent the day with the momma...strange, I guess parents actually miss you when you're gone. Who'da thought? Anyhoo, we went to Owosso and did a bit of shopping, then ate a late lunch in Chesaning. Around 4pm I got ready to go out to dinner with Dan and "the family" - the formal occasion I spoke of earlier. I looked damn good, if I may say so myself, lol. (My mommy said I was beautiful!...)
Unfortunately though (or perhaps not so unfortunate, as it was still fun), a few plans fell through and dinner with "the family" turned out to be just me, Dan, Brandon, and his friend Scott (who're both from Midland). We ate at the Buffet King then went to a Halloween store while all dressed up. Afterward we went back to Brandon's and played Kissopoly (yeah, the KISS edition of Monopoly) and, as with any edition of Monopoly, I sucked at it. Hehe, I wasn't the first one to lose though; it seems Brandon is actually worse than I am. Or at least in this particular sitting he was. I did win both times we played the card game "Bullshit" though, which was cool. Does this mean I'm a good liar? ;)
We also went skating down the road (around the block near Brandon's house) in the dark. That's a unique experience, I must say, not being able to see the road in front of you (aside from the occasional street light). We were sitting around, trying to think of something to do, and Brandon asked me, "What sounds like fun to you right now?" I said, "Going skating." Well, coincidentally, my skates and Dan's rollerblades were in the trunk of his car, so off we went. Hehe, Scott had no skates so he rode in Brandon's wheel chair. Why Brandon has a wheel chair, I'm not exactly sure. Hehe, he made up a pretty good story about it though.
Those are the highlights of Friday. Good times, good times....
On Saturday, all the stuff worth mentioning happened after Dan and I went and saw my sister cheer at the 8th-grade football game that evening. Dan got to meet the dad and stepmom, who were none too social...sigh. Eh well. Once it was over, we wandered off to Jeff's, where he, Anna, and Alex had gathered. We made a pretty pointless (but nonetheless entertaining) trip to Meijer's - main stop, the toy section, of course. Particularly to admire and reminisce over the board games - with the exception of the game Perfection, which is Jeffy's own personal devil...nah, no admiration for that one.
After completing our Meijer's fiasco, we met at Dan's and watched "O Brother Where Art Thou" - a movie which definitely would be in my Top Five Movies list, should such a list ever come to exist.
Last night I had a dream that I don't fully remember, except that there were turkeys in it, and a rat that needed a dose of penicillin. Makes me wish I knew where my dream dictionary is - it's not every night that I dream about turkeys, after all.
This morning Dan and I watched "Ghostbusters" - y'know, I thought I'd seen it before, at some point in my distant past, but I didn't remember a thing from it.
Last but not least, today I worked 2:15 til 7pm (why they gave me that extra 15 minutes, I may never know, but it came in most useful as far as my appetite is concerned - I used those 15 minutes to eat). And work wasn't too bad. I made a new friend, lol - this guy Philip, whose first day was today; he's a sophomore here at mah college.
Then I came home and got an awesome parking spot, which is enough to turn any frown upside down. Parking here at LCS is a bitch, as those of you who've come to visit me will know. Those of you who have yet to visit, I shake my fist at you. *Shakes fist*
Anyhoo, upon my return I took out the trash then ate leftover pizza. Which brings me to my current time and place...Woooo...Rockin' out to Michael Jackson's "Dangerous" album.
Thus ends my sharing time. Who wants to go next?
Posted by Rachel at 9:27 PM |
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
there's so many things that Iwould like to say to you
but I don't know how...
I'm enjoying this onion bagel with cream cheese way too much. A big thank-you to my roomie, for her generous hospitality...
Class at 2:30 and I actually don't have anything too urgent to do beforehand. Maybe I should get started on other stuff and actually try to get ahead.
Oh yes. Ryan Adams does a wonderful cover of the Oasis song "Wonderwall" for those even remotely interested.
Posted by Rachel at 1:32 PM |
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
I met with Katie and her friend Kim today at 3 and we went over the script Katie's directing for her theatre class. It was a lot of fun, I must say. The piece we're doing is called "Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead" and we're doing it in an Abbott & Costello-type style. Kim's Rosencrantz; I'm Guildenstern.Tiffany popped in for half a second while we were practicing. Just to say hi to moi. I feel special and stuff. Her hair looks really cute the way she's got it now.
I want to do something fun with my hair. I want red highlights. Money, where are you!? I need you! Come to me, my precioussss.....
Speaking of money, I've got to use some to buy something formal to wear Friday. Sigh, I don't do formal well; I usually overdo it or don't dress up enough. Skirts are a pet peeve of mine. But, it's a sacrifice I'm willing to make, given the circumstances. Maybe I can find the perfect "little black dress." Can't go wrong with a little black dress, right? Plus it gives me an excuse to go clothes-shopping.
I want a new template. I'm sick of the pink. Maybe I'll just change up the colors.
I'm actually relatively caught up on all my school work. Not going out at night really helps. Now if I can just keep myself from sitting in front of the darn computer constantly...But alas, you can't win 'em all.
Posted by Rachel at 11:22 PM |
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Woooo. A whole history paper written the night before it's due. Note to self: STOP PROCRASTINATING SO MUCH. I just have to revise the paper tomorrow before I turn it in at 2:30. Shouldn't be a problem. The stuff we're learning in my history class interests me - it's stuff I actually haven't learned before.I've been feeling a little different lately. I think my living day-to-day has taken a bit of a toll on me. I'm a dreamer; I have to think about the future. Problem is, I have no idea where mine is going.
I've been thinking about the past too, some, missing some of its familiarities. Looking back though, it feels nice to be able to say I've moved forward. Being stuck in a rut is one of the most frusterating feelings in the world.
Well, on with moving forward then.
Posted by Rachel at 11:37 PM |
Thursday, September 16, 2004
I've had the slight urge to rant and ramble in here lately but haven't gotten around to it due to the fact that I seem to have a life now (or just an overabundance of homework). I just read Kurtis's most recent post and comments, and...well, I don't know. I don't want to start any trouble but I do suppose it's about time I give everyone my side of the story - everyone who doesn't already know it anyway - I talked to Eric yesterday, so it should be making its way around anytime now, lol... ;)I feel like I should title it or something. The Fall of the Relationship of Rachel and Kurtis. Sufficient enough, I suppose.
Some time ago, during the summer (I don't remember exactly when, though Kurtis asked me more than once) I started having doubts about the relationship. I started to realize that I wasn't completely happy. I tried to ignore these feelings, but they didn't go away - they got stronger, as feelings have a tendency to do. We just weren't connecting on the same level anymore, in my opinion (though he seemed quite oblivious to this). It came to be that I didn't want to spend as much time with him. I started hanging out with other friends more, like Jeff, then Dan (it just so happens to be that most of my friends are guys). Kurtis had his suspicions about Jeff too, at first, and was jealous of him no matter how often I told him he had no reason to worry.
I think spending time with other people, and away from Kurtis, helped me gain some perspective on the relationship. Which ultimately did nothing to help it, I suppose.
One night Kurtis asked me if I was happy, and I told him no. We broke up then, for a day, but I went back to him because...I don't know. Maybe I was afraid. I thought I still loved him, but once we were back together nothing was different. I still didn't feel completely happy. So I broke it off again, this time for good. I just went with my gut feeling, and my feeling told me that we weren't supposed to be together. Why prolong the agony?
I went through a lot of thinking, and tried to sort out my feelings, and I think I finally did. We talked a lot after we broke up, hung out together a little bit, then (apparently mutually, now) decided that it would be best to spend time completely away from each other, not talking or hanging out. He's taken it a little farther than I expected him to, but whatever he's gotta do. I have no problem with that.
Now, as far as Dan is concerned - I didn't leave Kurtis for Dan. I've told many people this already. I do think that maybe my friendship with Dan opened the door to more doubts in my relationship with Kurtis though, if that makes sense. I refused to let myself think about him in any way other than as a friend though. When Kurtis and I broke up, he was there for me - he let me vent and rant and so on (but never overstepped his boundaries as being just a friend). I started spending more time with him after Kurtis and I broke up - a lot more time. Quite often this was my doing, I'll admit, but he didn't object. And so our relationship came to be. As time passes, I'm seeing just how wrong Kurtis and I were for each other. Sure, we were compatible in a lot of ways. But there's a lot more ways that we're not.
So there it is. I've moved on and my life is good.
Posted by Rachel at 1:03 PM |
Sunday, September 12, 2004
weekend
Everything has been going amazingly well. Quite spontaneously too - definitely not how I would've expected my weekend to go (if I had allowed myself to make any expectations, that is). I haven't been this elated in a long, long time. I don't want to ruin it for anything.Thursday night I hung out with Dan, Friday night Josh had a movie party of sorts (I've finally seen Les Miserables - the movie anyway, not the actual musical); Saturday...Saturday was just a good day, I'll leave it at that for now. Today was the Renaissance Festival which was enjoyable as always (but would have been a bit more so if I hadn't been so tired).
The only downfall to all of this is that I've been putting off doing homework like no other (but it's been more than worth it). I'd better get to bed so I can read my history chapters tomorrow before the quiz at 2:30...
Posted by Rachel at 11:49 PM |
Friday, September 10, 2004
I haven't been really in the mood to write much lately. I find that I kinda like keeping my inner thoughts and feelings to myself for the most part. It keeps people guessing.Posted by Rachel at 5:27 PM |
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
english class
I probably shouldn't be writing now, since I'm in English class, but at least some of it is class-related...My professor went to the same school as John Belushi (of Blues Brothers fame) in Illinois. She was in the same class as his sister, she says.
I wonder if anyone I know from school will ever become famous. I wonder if it'll be me.
We had to read an excerpt from Michael Moore's "Idiot Nation" for the class. And while I consider myself more conservative in terms of politics and etc., I have to agree that Moore brings up some very valid points in terms of the condition of America' s educational system. I had a bit of a debate with Jeff (who is an avid Republican) over Moore's "liberatarian" (sp?) point of view vs. the government, until Jeff decided he didn't want to get into it, lol.
I think I might look a bit more indepth into Moore's work. Not necessarily because I agree with all of it, but because he does bring up good points that make you think (even if he has a tendency to be rather negative and to try and cause controversy). Jeff argued that Moore only shows half-truths, but from what I gather, this is not a new practice. Political candidates do it to sell themselves in campaigns, for one. I guess a person just has to sort it out for themselves.
So far it seems like most of the people in my class were offended by what they read. I can understand this too. But I'm keeping an open mind about it all.
Twenty minutes to go. Now that my classes are getting more indepth, they're getting more interesting. This is a plus.
Posted by Rachel at 5:01 PM |
new shoes
I don't really need new shoesI bought myself some new shoes at the mall yesterday. I've been debating buying a pair of Chuck Taylors for my very own for awhile but put it off cuz I didn't want people to think I was buying them just cuz Kurtis wears them. Well, now I don't really care one way or the other, lol, but the pair I bought are different from his.
I had to special order 'em, cuz they didn't have my size, so it'll be a few days before I get them, but they should be fun.
Posted by Rachel at 4:03 PM |
Sunday, September 05, 2004
CD lists revisited
I made two of my 3 CDs, and I figured I'd list the final track lists for anyone who cares even remotely.Fast/"Songs Your Grandma Probably Wouldn't Like":
01. J-Kwon - "Tipsy"
02. Black Eyed Peas - "Let's Get it Started"
03. Jagged Edge - "Let's Get Married" (remix)
04. Usher etc. - "Yeah"
05. Lil Wayne - "Way of Life"
06. Christina Millian - "Dip it Low"
07. Audio Bullys - "100 Million"
08. Nelly etc. - "Work It" (AC/DC remix)
09. Tipsy Instrumental
10. Steriogram - "Walkie Talkie Man"
11. Offspring - "Come Out and Play"
12. Electric Six & Jack White - "Danger (High Voltage)"
14. Janet Jackson - "Black Cat"
15. Counting Crows - "Hangin' Around"
16. Audio Bullys - "Toyota"
17. Andre 3000 - "Dracula's Wedding"
18. Way of Life instrumental
19. Dro in the Wind instrumental
I may have to remake the CD though because I'm not sure of the original's whereabouts. I think I lost it in Dan's car.
Random/"Somewhere in the Middle of Fast and Slow":
01. Imani Copola - "Legend of a Cowgirl" (fun song)
02. Depeche Mode - "Dream On"
03. The Stone Roses - "Billie Jean" (remake)
04. Janet Jackson - "Run Away"
05. Smashing Pumpkins - "Bullet with Butterfly Wings"
06. Jewel - "Stand"
07. Hootie and the Blowfish - "Use Me"
08. Limp Bizkit - "My Way"
09. Nickelback - "Feelin' Way Too Damn Good"
10. Bush - "Glycerine"
11. Jet - "Cold Hard Bitch"
12. Jojo - "Leave (Get Out)
13. Tori Amos - "Raspberry Swirl"
14. Shinedown - "45"
15. Linear - "Sending All My Love"
16. The Cure - "The Lovecats"
17. Wheatus - "Teenage Dirtbag"
18. Modest Mouse - "Float On"
That one was kind of thrown together last minute cuz I wanted to play some of the songs on my stereo instead of my computer speakers.
Posted by Rachel at 7:52 PM |
Thursday, September 02, 2004
back from the dead
back from the deadWhere to start...I have my home computer here at school. I wasn't going to bother with it, I was just going to buy a new one. But when my mom made the offer for me to take it and I realized I don't have as much money as I first thought, I gave in. It's definitely better than nothing.
I went to try and get a cell phone today but the guy there said I couldn't because they didn't have enough info on my credit - I don't have any credit. Bastards, how am I supposed to get any if they don't let me start somewhere?? But alas, all in due time...maybe I'll talk to my mom about getting one under her plan or something.
School seems to be agreeing with me quite nicely on the whole; I'm learning much about self-discipline, however. Balancing work, homework, school, and "playtime" has proven to be quite the task. So far I'm staying afloat and with a little practice, I might actually get ahead. More about that later though, I have to be getting to bed in order to work tomorrow morning. Then it's off to Midland, I think.
Anyhoo, off I go.
